I always saw myself as the physician with the closed door. One patient, one room, nobody interrupting. That image goes back to childhood, being examined by our family doctor, the stethoscope on my chest, my breathing matching his.
I trained around radiologists, surgeons, intensivists. They shaped how I think. I never once saw myself as one of them. None of it gave me the closeness with a patient I actually wanted.
That might sound selfish. It's not fully about the patient. But this is the part worth saying out loud: whatever you choose has to give something back to you, or you won't have the drive to keep showing up when it costs you.
Burnout isn't about working too hard. It's about the return stopping. You keep putting in and stop getting anything back.
Early in one clinical job, I had time to actually know my patients. I went home tired every day, but I was tired because I was connected to them. Then the schedule tightened. Less time per patient, less time to understand what they were actually worried about. I was giving more than I was getting back.
I don't think I was burned out. I was on the road to it. Noticing that, and fixing the imbalance instead of pushing through it, is what actually saved my career. Moving into medical education, while keeping one clinic day a week, gave me a new way to give that also gave something back. It's shifted over nine years. It changed with me, not against me.
Some months are still hard. That's fine. That's temporary. The problem starts the moment it stops being temporary and you don't notice.
That's the question underneath all of it. Not what should I do next, but what actually gives back to me. Here's one way to sit with it.
What to do with it
The identity, minus the job.
Take a sheet of paper. On one side, write every version of the sentence “I am a ____” that comes from your job, your title, your credentials. On the other side, write every version that doesn't.
Now cross out the left column. All of it. Not because it isn't true, but because for one minute, it isn't allowed to answer the question.
What's left is not nothing. It's usually a short list, and it's usually the part of you that was there before the job and will still be there after it. That list is not a consolation prize. It's the part of your identity that isn't rented.
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The coach's view
Almost everyone I work with arrives describing a career problem. Underneath it is almost always an identity problem. Not “what should I do next” but “who am I if I'm not the one who does this.”
That question can't be answered by thinking harder about it. It gets answered by trying on a few possible versions of yourself and watching which ones feel like relief instead of performance. The job of a good transition isn't finding the right answer up front. It's building enough evidence, in small experiments, that you can trust one.
Worth your time
01 · Listen
How your identity changes when you change jobs
HBR IdeaCast, with Herminia Ibarra. Why a job change unsettles more than your calendar, and how people actually reinvent.
Listen to the episode02 · Read
How to not let your job define you
Kira Newman, Greater Good, on Simone Stolzoff. What fills the space when the job stops being the whole answer.
Read the article03 · Do
Introduce yourself without the title
Say who you are three times out loud, with no job, no credential, no institution. Notice which sentence is hardest.
Now tell me where you are. Just hit reply, or email me. I read every one.
